Finding your place in this world does not always happen. I know im speaking prematurely but I feel that even if people feel like they are happy or when they say 'settled' I'm not altogether sure they are really satisfied. But does that place really exist? That utopia of contentness. Or do we just think it does? I don't know any answers but I do believe in living one day at time and that its irresponsible really to make vast plans for one's future. You don't know what the fuck is going to happen, stop pretending like you do. Music enhances every day of my life and I don't ever think I could go a day without listening to something. I used to get told this was like a sickness, that I was a music junkie and that it would take away from my 'getting on with my life.' All I know is that is has shaped the man that I find myself to be today. I never feel as pure as an emotion as to when I'm listening to a certain track at a certain time. It just hits me like nothing else. It's like I can be anyone for that time space. It's not really something I can describe easily. Like love. I'm going to have to learn to live with myself coz in the end its all I or any of us have really got.

Party time dudes

My next gig.

Venting Session

How does this work? I mean your brain tells you that you like a girl. You go for it. She's into you. It's great for a while, smiles, intent, pleasure. Then something clicks, ur brain aint feeling like it used to. Something has changed but you dont know why, confused, you struggle to manage the situation. In the end, a negative climax occurs and you think...did that just happen and was it all worth it? I fell in love at first at fifteen then at eighteen. The last experience caused my mind to build the all so common metaphorical wall to protect myself from potential emotional harm. Since then I have not felt an emotion as strong as what i descirbe as love. I tend to wonder if that feeling will manifest itself again. Some girls hold a light but none ignite the flame. Frustration and confusion, masked buy a chronic haze and too much procrastination.

1st Melborune DJ gig!

YOOOO! So I'm quite excited to announce that I will be spinning some tracks at LOO$E CHANGE at the Exchange Hotel in Footscray this Thursday. Loose Change has become a west side institution in the past few months and I am very proud to be a part of it. http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=146086912157055¬if_t=event_name_change http://www.last.fm/event/2088569+LOO%24E+CHANGE

New remix I made. Works well with rain. DL below.

http://soundcloud.com/lbellesi/coldplay-paradise-kinsky-edit

First of all I apologise for not being active on this almost at all int he past 6 months or so. The above link is my soundcloud. I have uploaded shit ive been having fun with in my room just because i can.

I think i might do another review soon..possibly whilst im in Cairns for 2.5 weeks. It will prolly be to Krawyshawn or Miami Horror.

Much love.

http://soundcloud.com/lbellesi/kraeyshawn-gucci-gucci-kinsky